Lucky indeed

So tomorrow is my one year anniversary. The anniversary when I kicked the lying, cheating scum to the curb and said. . . . well, never mind what I said since it was all horrible, mean, and felt oh, so good to say it. One whole year on my own.

Ups and Downs, still more Downs than Ups but starting to balance out. I love the fact that a year has gone by. Now when I look back I have done every day by myself. No more of the "this time last year I was still married. ." nonsense. No Siree, every day mine ALL MINE. Good, bad, and extremely ugly. Still mine.

I have made new friends. I have a Halloween party to look forward to. I have applied for a job. I have fixed things. I have made dishes from new recipes. I have traveled alone, driven alone, and lived alone. All in one year. 365 days. 8766.1536 hours. 525948.766 minutes. 31446925.9936 seconds. All these changes were done in such a short amount of time. With all of these wonderful things, wonderful people, is it wrong to ask for more? I couldn't decide, so I asked anyway and received the best thing ever.

The best thing ever, EVER, is the kid is coming home for a visit. To see me. To come home, my home, his home, our home. With all the bad that he has been through, and trust me when I say a kid SHOULD never have to go through what he did, he still wants to see me. The mother who still feels that she failed him. Let him down. Destroyed his world. This mother gets another great thing.

She who doesn't deserve it, she gets a eighteen year old boy flying all the way home to spend a weekend with his mom.

I am lucky indeed.